Haphazardly Spelt Words Organised Somewhat Coherently to be Published Forever on the Internet

I must start this post with an apology.

I missed world pyjama day. In fact I completely forgot that I declared it a day at all. Although a just googled it an Australia has two separate pyjama days as part of fundraising for something important but that is not a world pyjama day so yeah, maybe next year. Although blogger thinks that "pyjama" is spelt wrong which explains why my post declaring the day says "Pajama" which google has just told me is the American spelling  and I probably should have googled the spelling the day I wrote that post instead of having the awkward desision now of changing the spelling in this post or the previous or not at all (not at all is winning right now) but it was the first day after exams so I think I can forgive myself. But inconsistent spelling does make it hard to have a world wide day especially if I can't even decide which version to use, technically they are both right. Blogger also thinks "spelt" is spelt wrong, is that right?

I also felt a bit weird about posting my last post. The thing is I wrote it right after my last exam and then left it for a couple of days before proof reading. When you are in exam mode you have all these ideas about the great things you will do once it is over. It is those ideas that get you through it. But then three days go by, you are busy with work and suddenly everything seems sooo difficult, too difficult. Which is sad, but life.

I decided to post it though because it was a true reflection of how I felt at the time just like this shows how I feel now. Plus, I want to be the motivated creative go getter so maybe one day I will read it again and it will be just what I need.

Anyway, my mother read my blog the other day (actually quite a while ago now but that is not really important to the story so "the other day" will suffice but I have a thing about being overly honest). Now I don't mind if she reads it or not, she just hadn't till this point and I had assumed it was intentional. But after the hotel post she looked it up. And found a lot and I mean a lot of issues with spelling, grammar (not so much of an issue as sometimes it is intentional but sometimes it is not and then we have issues), sentences that I seem to have lost interest in half way though and just given up on unfinished etc. Which is very embarrassing. I mean I have always sucked at spelling and spell check is on my list of best friends (don't actually have a list) but I didn't want the internet to know the extent of the problem. I mean how can you expect your blog to be successful if people cannot read it? On, that note how can you expect your blog to be successful if you never tell anyone about it? Or, if you never post on it? Anyway lets cross one bridge at a time. What this did was expose the horrible habit I have of not properly proofreading any of my posts.

Yes that's right even I can't be bothered reading these things in full. So HOW can I expect anyone else to read them???????? To be honest at the time of completion I generally dislike most of my posts so I am afraid that if I read them than I would chicken out of posting and then I would have a file on my computer of things that I spent time writing that no one will ever read and a sadly empty blog. So instead I just try to think of a name that isn't too cringe worthy and press publish. So I guess I am working on the belief that a bad post is better than no post. Which on reflection doesn't really sound like a well thought out system but there are bigger things in the world to worry about. However I now plan on putting a little more effort into the proofreading stage of  this thing and hopefully I will pick up on the worst offenders.

Now, what shall I have for lunch?

Hypothetical Confessions to Inanimate Objects and Post Exam Brain Fillers

Hey, blog…

We need to talk. I know that I have been ignoring you lately and I’m sorry. This is tough but you deserve an explanation. There is someone else, well something else. I … I… I I GOT A VIDEO CAMERA OK. There it out, I said it. I got a video camera and instead of using you as a creative outlet I have been using it. I’m considering starting a Vlog.

It’s not you it’s me. I was just so busy studying for exams that I didn’t have time to type out a coherent post, I got frustrated and lonely and when I needed to vent it was there for me. It was so much easier to just talk to it rather than type everything out. I don’t expect you to forgive me. But, I would like to be friends? You and I we have something special that I just can’t get from a Vlog and that’s thinly veiled anonymity. How long has this being going on? Well on and off for three weeks. But it’s not like I have posted anything yet. I mean I could just delete the recording and we could go back to normal. Like it used to be before.

And that is as far as I got in the 10 minutes that I allowed for myself to procrastinate from studying for my last final exam for this semester. Not 10 minutes all up nooooooooo that would actually be inhuman. Even as a perfectionist I am not crazy enough to expect that from anyone. Just the 10 minutes that I allowed for typing out a brain wave that I had for a blog post. Many many minutes were lost through procrastinating via other methods that may or may not have included youtube.

But anyway that is in the past now, I still studied a lot and exams are over. I just finished my last one. And what better way to distract oneself from pondering what one may or may not have done in that exam than by train blogging? Especially since the above hypothetical conversation between my blog and I is not entirely fictional.

Yes, that’s right. I InsertNameHere got a video camera, thanks mum. Now as I like to consider myself an aspiring actor and scriptwriter and director etc. you can understand that a video camera has been on my list of wants for a very long time. But the thing about video cameras is that they are notorious for being that thing that you buy (a lot of the time before an overseas vacation) that you think you will use all the time and then never use again except for maybe that family reunion that everyone would actually prefer to forget. Then there is the fact that I have had this blog for a year now and I have only posted 17 times (including this post), so what does that say about my commitment to anything I do? So, you can also probably understand why I am a little afraid that my video camera will end up a dust collecting ornament. BUT, I am determined to not let that happen.

So then what will I do with my awesome camera? Well I could just film everything ever, like that movie but without the superpowers and death and I am considering that option but recognise that it may not be the most socially acceptable one. Then there is the vlog (and the awkward moment when my computer views “vlog” as an incorrectly spelt word, get with the program computer this is not cave man times… I’m kidding computer please don’t crash or anything). The above possible youtube included some videos by the Vlog brothers (I would like to note one was directly related to one of my exams so technically studying) and them The Lizzie Bennet Diaries which is amazing, so amazing in fact that I used its actual name in my post as opposed to calling it the emmy awards winning vlog series based on one of the most well-known Jane Austen novels. And I thought hey that is something I could do. I then looked up how many people actually do that (list of well-known youtube personalities) and saw that a lot of people do. Which really means any attempt I made would most likely be considered unoriginal and so late for the party that no one even remembers having one. But who am I to let that stop me. If I want to have a vlog I should. I mean I was late to the party with the blog and yet as I type this out I feel better than I have in a long time.

But, do I really want a vlog, there is not anonymity with one, they see your face. Would I willingly post a video of me talking to a camera, bad acne and all onto the internet where it stays FOREVER. What if something I think is really cool isn’t or a say something I later regret. Now both issues are things I face with this blog and I do attempt to not say anything that I would not be comfortable saying in real life but a vlog feels kinda different. There would also be nothing to stop me for shamelessly promoting it, which means people I know might see it and what if it is stupid?

Plus, what would a vlog mean for this blog, I mean I could make the blog not anonymous (because I have been doing such a good job at keeping it a secret… not) but do I want that? But with the amount of free time I have I could not do both, plus I would run out of ideas and then when I had one of my rare ideas I would have to decide whether to blog or vlog it.

Just another example of how I over complicate things. But then again, I would much rather have this to worry about then exams.

Oh how the freedom tastes so sweet.
Till next time (Hopefully not too far away).